Time is FLYING By!

First of all, I was interviewed by a very sweet blogger!



You can click on the button and read my interview :) I felt so excited to be asked to answer questions about myself!


Second, I took my first 5 unit Lupron shot! Know what that means? Bravelle starts at 9pm tonight! I took the advice of a few of you ladies and went out and grabbed Gatorade! Yeah, like 20 bottles of it and I have a feeling (because I've been rather dehydrated) that I'm going to need to grab a few more during this 10 day span.

And I've had weird cravings for chocolate milk lately.. generally, I hate milk so I don't know what kind of tricks Lupron is playing on my body but whatever... if the worst thing it's going to do it make me crave milk then hell, stick around friendly Lupron.

I'm kiiind of nervous about the 3 vials of stims but I'll be fine. I just know it.

They said my tentative egg retrieval is going to be on the 17th (most likely NOT before then, I hope to God not considering I only requested work off from the 17th through the 25th) I have my last ultrasound on the 16th so I figure they'll have my trigger shortly after that. Of course, it all depends on how this Bravelle works for me.

Not much else to report, just working on getting the apartment cleaned & super organized so I can relax on my 9 day mini-break from work/IVF junk! We've rounded up 2 bags of clothes we are giving away and a bunch of stuff. A has even agreed to get rid of some of the guitars he has. *gasp* If you knew him, you'd realize this was a HUUUUGE deal but he realizes that if WHEN this IVF works, we are going to have to get rid of shit anyway because his studio right now is our future nursery.

And we tried some of the new stuffed cheesy breads from Domino's last night. The feta & spinach one is soooo incredible. $5.99 for one small slab of bread is rather expensive though.

I'm working on replying to the comments you wonderful women have left me and looks like I have a few new followers! That means, I'll be showing them some love tooooo.

Ahhh, I seriously love the IF blogging community. Without this place, I'd be insane.



Xoxoxo.

Oh Hey, Bravelle.

Well,

This body is finally working right.

Thin lining and tiny follies all ready to be stimulated.

I start Bravelle on Saturday and my Lupron is shrinking to 5 units!

I'm so freaking excited.

My estrogen was 23!!!! They wanted it under 80. I think I nailed it. :)



Before I go, my nurse looked at me and she said "Kayla, your numbers and lining are PERFECT. You couldn't ask for a better start to an IVF."
Is it crazy that I almost cried over that news?

Maybe this has all been a test? Cancer to see how strong I am and to build my relationships...
Infertility to test me again but to test me to see how much patience I have... Because obviously babies take patience.

I guess we will see around the 17th!!!!

Last...

Birth control pill! :)

To me, this signifies that ANOTHER IVF chapter has closed and many more are about to open. The last 3 weeks have FLOWN by and I'm ready for this!

The Lupron is still easy as can be... except, ya know, the ONE shot that A did yesterday and he forgot to squeeze the skin before putting the needle in. That's the ONLY shot (out of Lupron and 144 chemotherapy injections) that I actually said HOLY SHIT!

If my baseline goes well next Thursday, I'll be doing my retrieval in less than 3 weeks! AHHHH!!

I'm hoping since I've never had any past MCs and there's no genetic factors or anything else showing possible risks, that we have a successful first IVF and a few babies in the end.

We found out that A was given a temporary position within his CURRENT job (which is a great thing!) and that he's going to be learning so many new things... it doesn't have much of a pay increase but it miiiight have a new schedule (hell yes).

I had someone else give me a car seat today, that makes 2 gifted to us. It's used, and it's very pink, but it's in great shape. Doesn't expire until 2016 and has never been in a car accident.... I figure, if we need it or not, it's free! It's so shocking to me how much people are coming through for us BEFORE we are pregnant -- imagine what it's going to be like once we are expecting!

And expecting we shall be (in less than a month!)

This is a button that my friend gave to me.. it says "Fuck yeah, we can live like this" -- That's pretty much how I feel about IVF, getting pregnant and being a mommy. :)

Healthy Christmas.

Yesterday was my FIRST healthy Christmas celebration in threeee years! It was amazing, except for the whole having to work on Christmas thing.

I had to wake up at 5:30a just to go to work and bathe, feed and get my client ready for the day. Don't get me wrong, I love my job but I would have rather gotten some sleep. I don't know if it's normal but I'm waking up sweaty at night from this Lupron and I've had craaaazy baby dreams lately.

Soooo... Christmas day. My DH and I went to my parents around 11a and opened gifts. We all had an AWESOME gift exchange this year. :)

I got A a bunch of hookah stuff, tubes for his guitar amp, strings, picks, clothes, a sushi maker and a few other things.

I ended up with amazingly soft lounge pants (I wanted some for my time off of work after ER & ET), pajamas, jeans, shirts, shoes, boots, a stand for over our toilet so we can have organization (we have a closet sized bathroom), a hugggeee cabinet for the kitchen so I can FINALLY get our place organized, a wine holder, and some other decor items and clothing.

I really did have the best Christmas I've had in years. :)

I've been a terrible ICLWer so I'm going to have to make up for it tonight!

Hope everyone had an amaziiiing Christmas. <3.

Thinkin' 'Bout Somethin'

I haven't updated because well, there's not much to update with... for now :)

I'm almost done with my BCPs! Seriously! 4 days (3 if you don't count today) of pills left. I'm doing well with Lupron, it's just making me tired and my boobs STILL hurt really bad.

(I'm documenting all of this in case of have to, for whatever reason, do a second IVF)


I was out on Tuesday with the bff and we saw TWO examples of AWFUL parenting... within an hour!

Incident #1 - We were at dinner and I was sitting in a booth facing a father and his son. They were eating pizza and when the food made it to their table, the little boy reached for a piece and the father backhanded him ACROSS THE FACE. He then proceeded to tell him that he was supposed to wait until the parents got their dinner first. Uh, what the FUCK? I am pretty sure I will always feed my kid (or ANY kid, for that matter) FIRST.

Incident #2 - We were at Hobby Lobby and a girl and her mother were looking at the Christmas ornaments. If you've been to Hobby Lobby, they have a lot of glass/fragile ornaments but they do a decent job (at least in my store) at keeping them at the top of the display. Well, this girl (probably about 8) and her mom were looking at the ornaments and I turned around from where we were standing just in time to see the mother grab a handful of her daughters hair and literally YANK her away from the display. The mother also hit the little girl in the back of the head and called her a "fucking idiot retard" while the little girl stood in the middle of the store screaming and crying her eyes out. Before we walked away (because I wanted to say something) we heard the little girl apologizing.

I wanted to say something to both of those parents but I'm a generally quiet person... and obviously with their anger, they might attempt to harm me for getting in to their situation.

Those are examples of people that shouldn't be allowed to have children --- and here I am, depressed because I'm spending ANOTHER Christmas without a child to show love to.

I just can't wait until those people are old as shit and their kids are left in charge of them. I hope they make them eat shit sandwiches and drink their own pee. :)


Can't wait to update tomorrow with a list of all of the goodies that I got from family & DH!

ICLW & Skin Stabbing.

Today starts the December ICLW and I'm super excited. :)


Guess what else today is?

FIRST SHOT OF LUPRON!
Yeah, it was a breeze.

Only 7 more birth control pills left.
This is happening so fast and I'm so damn stoked.


Eeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

Short & Sweet

I'm at work so I don't have much time.

I picked up my Lupron yesterday. :)
It hit me, in 60ish days.... I might be carrying my future child(ren).

The rest of my medicine will be here on Tuesday. Woo woo!