Time is FLYING By!

First of all, I was interviewed by a very sweet blogger!



You can click on the button and read my interview :) I felt so excited to be asked to answer questions about myself!


Second, I took my first 5 unit Lupron shot! Know what that means? Bravelle starts at 9pm tonight! I took the advice of a few of you ladies and went out and grabbed Gatorade! Yeah, like 20 bottles of it and I have a feeling (because I've been rather dehydrated) that I'm going to need to grab a few more during this 10 day span.

And I've had weird cravings for chocolate milk lately.. generally, I hate milk so I don't know what kind of tricks Lupron is playing on my body but whatever... if the worst thing it's going to do it make me crave milk then hell, stick around friendly Lupron.

I'm kiiind of nervous about the 3 vials of stims but I'll be fine. I just know it.

They said my tentative egg retrieval is going to be on the 17th (most likely NOT before then, I hope to God not considering I only requested work off from the 17th through the 25th) I have my last ultrasound on the 16th so I figure they'll have my trigger shortly after that. Of course, it all depends on how this Bravelle works for me.

Not much else to report, just working on getting the apartment cleaned & super organized so I can relax on my 9 day mini-break from work/IVF junk! We've rounded up 2 bags of clothes we are giving away and a bunch of stuff. A has even agreed to get rid of some of the guitars he has. *gasp* If you knew him, you'd realize this was a HUUUUGE deal but he realizes that if WHEN this IVF works, we are going to have to get rid of shit anyway because his studio right now is our future nursery.

And we tried some of the new stuffed cheesy breads from Domino's last night. The feta & spinach one is soooo incredible. $5.99 for one small slab of bread is rather expensive though.

I'm working on replying to the comments you wonderful women have left me and looks like I have a few new followers! That means, I'll be showing them some love tooooo.

Ahhh, I seriously love the IF blogging community. Without this place, I'd be insane.



Xoxoxo.

ICLW & Skin Stabbing.

Today starts the December ICLW and I'm super excited. :)


Guess what else today is?

FIRST SHOT OF LUPRON!
Yeah, it was a breeze.

Only 7 more birth control pills left.
This is happening so fast and I'm so damn stoked.


Eeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

Damn!

My boobs hurt SO damn bad and I haven't even started Lupron yet!

Ahhhhh. It hurts for water to even hit them! If I were still doing Clomid, I would assume this shit was associated with my uterus housing some little shits but noooooooooooo - my body just won't do things the easy way.

Tomorrow starts ICLW, I can't wait to get to know some new ladies! :)



So anyway, A and I got married in April of this year and right before the wedding, my cousin (she was a bridesmaid) and I had a falling out. Something was going on in her personal life and she didn't tell me and just kind of... lost it one day. That day just happened to be the day of my bridal shower... :/ And while I am still kind of confused as to why she had to say mean and hurtful things to me on that specific day, I can honestly say that I missed her. I hadn't talked to her until sometime last week, she messaged me on Facebook to say sorry.

I've NEVER been the kind of person to hold a grudge and my heart had a heavy spot where I wished that things had never gone wrong... so when I saw her message I didn't want to instantly be like "IT'S ALRIGHT! LET'S HANG OUT!" but I said "You know, I am kind of bothered that things happened but I would like to slowly start to build back our friendship and more importantly, our family bond." We texted each other all day today and suddenly, the little piece of me that felt heavy is gone.

I'm so glad this happened RIGHT before all of this IVF stuff because I want to be as stress free and SUPPORTED through all of this. I have yet to tell her that I am doing IVF, I don't feel like telling her that when we're just getting back to talking.... but I know once she finds out I'm pregnant (IF this works, and it will damnit!) she's going to be over the moon for us!

So yeah, happy happy.

I had dinner with my best friend tonight and we did our Christmas exchange. I cherish the once a month, two hour time slots that I get to spend with her. We've been through so much and to have her here for me through all of this, even if it's via text or skype, means everything to me. All of my ultrasounds and bloodwork are going to be at 8am and that would mean waking my (un)happy ass up at 4:30am to get there on time because of the long ass drive.... soooo.... I'm staying with the bff! She only lives 10 minutes away from the RE. :)



Before I end, I have a question for all of you:

RIght now, I'm only taking Synthroid and BCPs.... but the left side of my lip has been twitching REALLY bad lately. I'm not talking I kind of feel it and it stops... I mean, people notice.. I can look in the mirror and see it and it's really freaking me out.

I'm wondering if it's some kind of weird reaction to the BCPs cause I've never had this before. Should I call me RE tomorrow or just ride it out? I haven't felt funny or anything, it's just really damn annoying.

Thinking.

My husband and I have talked a lot about how many embryos we are going to transfer, if I have plenty of quality ones.... and we've both agreed on at least 2, if not 3.

The weird thing about this situation is:

1. I've had a dream that I transferred 3 and all of them took, and I had a great pregnancy (and 2 boys & a girl!).

2. My mother has been having dreams that I give birth to triplets (which is SO weird because I haven't told her about our decision to transfer multiples).

3. My husband, before we decided to talk about how many, kept telling me that he felt like 3 was a magic number.

It just seems to me that something is bringing that number to all of us...
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I talked to my doctor about transferring 3 and he said he'd gladly do 2. He WILL do 3 but he wanted to make me aware of the high risks of a pregnancy carrying 3.


Gosh, I am so anxious to get this going. I just hope that the medicines work, the eggs fertilize, and we have a few to transfer and a few to freeze (just in case). Can we just hurry AF up? -- but NOT BEFORE THE 28TH!


I'm so looking forward to getting all of this IVF stuff started that I've spent the last 3 weeks decluttering our apartment, deep cleaning, packing up old clothes and took them to Goodwill, pre-planned Christmas shopping so I am not stressed over that, and set up a schedule to pay off our debt before 2012.

Yeah, bring on the triplets.
(Or twins or singleton! Just 2012, PLEASE BRING ME A BABY!)



I JUST WANT TO CLARIFY: I want to have a multiples pregnancy because I am putting myself at risk for MORE cancer. Because I had skin cancer, I'm high risk due to the hormones that come with pregnancy. I have the OK from my cancer doctor but she suggests ONE pregnancy and then a FIVE year break so I'd love multiples before I have to take a break!

:)

Slacking.

I haven't updated in a few days, the husband and I have been getting into couple-y type things (and I LOVE the time with him!).

On Thursday, we had dinner with a wonderful couple and their daughter. It was nice to see them, it had been MONTHS and the baby had grown so much! They're the kind of friends that you don't have to see often to feel comfortable around. After dinner, we went to Kmart and picked up our layaway.... I'll have to post pictures of the apartment after I get all of the new pretty stuff put out! I FINALLY bought curtains for the kitchen, our bedroom, and for the studio. I picked out a beautiful area rug for the living room since we are no longer using a coffee table AND we now have a Pur water filtration system on the faucet. I love that thing so much and NO MORE PITCHER in the fridge to waste space!

Yesterday, we were going to do dinner and a movie... which turned into just dinner and a lot of laughs with some more friends. I had to take my wedding ring to the jewelry store for my 6 month inspection and OF COURSE, I had a diamond a tiiiiny bit wobbly. I sent the ring out for repair but I feel so naked without it. :( When I'm not wearing my ring, it feels like something is wrong.

We had dinner at a place called Adornetto's. It's a local Italian place and it is some of the best food that I've ever tasted. I always get their wedding soup and garlic bread with cheese. At dinner (with another couple and their little girl), my husband decided to spill dressing all over himself. I laughed until I cried and my face hurt.

That is exactly what I've been needing.


I've been missing the laughing and the nights out. I've missed the "dates" and the hand holding. For the past two weeks, I've had my husband back and I'm loving every second of it. We have next Thursday and Friday together, too, and then he's going back to band practice in December. I don't mind because we are going to have a few extra days to spend together next month, so I guess I'll let it slide. Haha.

Today is a baby birthday party for a beautiful little girl. She is one of the few children that I feel comfortable around and her mother is one of the parents that doesn't judge me when I admit that I get uneasy when their kids cry... or need a diaper change (yes, I'll admit, I've never changed a diaper. I'm saving it until the poop is from my own spawn). I have a shopping addiction for my friends' children so we went to Children's Place last night.... oh, bad idea. :)

TOO cute to pass up for the little girl I love adore!

I saw this and instantly KNEW we had to buy it for our favorite little boy!  No idea why, it just made me laugh super hard. I think I just love the eyebrows, hahaha.

Nothing super exciting to report. I had a BETA test done yesterday (just because they made me) and SURPRISE, I am NOT pregnant (obviously!). The nurse called and she was like "We got your beta results and you're not pregnant." My response was: "Well, obviously! I had small follies and we didn't trigger, I haven't even had a period since September." I think she felt stupid so she changed the stupid super fast and told me to start Provera on Thursday. I turned in my prescription and as long as I make it to November 28 with no period, my IVF is on track. Sooo... cross your fingers for me that I don't bleed for 10 more day. PLEASE?!

Not Always Negative Nancy.

I ordered my IVF meds today! I should be getting the shipment confirmation call Monday. I know I'm not even going to start my stims until December for a January transfer, but we have extra money now so I want to get it out of the way.

I've also already bought the birth control & anti-biotics they called in last week. I'm taking Provera on November 15 to start my period because my body is jerk.

I plan on posting some pictures tonight, just because. :) Be on the look out for that!